Technically it is June 29, 2012 but, it's 2:30am so I am unsure about that and my mind it is still "today" when actually it is "tomorrow" but "tomorrow" is now "today". Wow, time is weird and it goes by so very fast.
I haven't blogged since May 4th...that is kind of really sad. There is so much that I could have talked about but now, time has passed and I cannot remember all that time entails. Now my cousins are out visiting and it is beautiful. I am working (nearly) full-time at a grocery store. Yep. I have someone that makes me want to grow closer to God and be all I can and live up to my potential and live life fully and communicate my feelings (to real-life humans) and just makes me see how I am important. Who knows exactly what will come of all of it but I know, for now, it is good and the moment is good and full of growth and just full in general.
Here is a cool story just to remind you that miracles happen even in the little suburbs of Southern California...
I'm a newly working-girl and oh my, paying rent and filling up the gas tank and paying for your own toothpaste and just living is expensive. I am blessed to have a car to drive (even if it's not my own car) but, it is quite the gas-guzzler. It is a truck after-all... so Sunday I have $15 for gas and I put it in and it goes from Red-Line-Empty to Quarter-Tank-Not-So-Empty. Great; I can get to work and back a few times. Wednesday comes along and steals the rest of my gas so again I go to the gas station and have a whole $20 to put in the tank. I pre-pay my $20 and it's taking a while to fill but I was just thinking it was being slow. I start the car that was just (again) on Red-Line-Empty and see the little needle move up to the This-Never-Happens-Full-Tank Line. Becca (my friend with me) and myself instantly think, "God just filled the tank!" There is no way my $20 just filled a big ol' truck that usually takes $80 to fill. No way. Two days goes by and the needle never moves so, I'm thinking that maybe it's broken and I just was over excited. I said to God, "Okay, I thought You filled my tank for me and I believe you can do that but, I don't want to be irresponsible and just not fill my tank and then breakdown on the side of the road. Can You just show me that it's not broken?" That evening the needle moves a tiny bit down, still on Full, but not Really-Full-Tank Full. That was almost 2 weeks ago and I am just now getting down to my Quarter-Tank Line.
Now most people reading this are like, "Oh my gosh. She is too bla bla bla... It wasn't God, it was just bla bla bla..." Okay? So you don't believe God miraculously placed gas into my tank but, you know what? I do believe He provided for me and that sure is miraculous because He does not have to care about my stupid little problem of not filling up my tank all the way! He cares and my tank is still not empty (and I've been driving more than I usually do.)
Thanks God. I know You're cool like that and like to give us good gifts.
Also I am totally reminded of the story of the vessels being filled with oil until they ran out of things to put the oil in... it just kept coming and coming and as long as the had something to put it in and fill up, the miraculous oil just kept coming. He is pouring... we just have to be open to receive the blessing and keep receiving and never stop.
Love. Lots of it.
I haven't blogged since May 4th...that is kind of really sad. There is so much that I could have talked about but now, time has passed and I cannot remember all that time entails. Now my cousins are out visiting and it is beautiful. I am working (nearly) full-time at a grocery store. Yep. I have someone that makes me want to grow closer to God and be all I can and live up to my potential and live life fully and communicate my feelings (to real-life humans) and just makes me see how I am important. Who knows exactly what will come of all of it but I know, for now, it is good and the moment is good and full of growth and just full in general.
Here is a cool story just to remind you that miracles happen even in the little suburbs of Southern California...
I'm a newly working-girl and oh my, paying rent and filling up the gas tank and paying for your own toothpaste and just living is expensive. I am blessed to have a car to drive (even if it's not my own car) but, it is quite the gas-guzzler. It is a truck after-all... so Sunday I have $15 for gas and I put it in and it goes from Red-Line-Empty to Quarter-Tank-Not-So-Empty. Great; I can get to work and back a few times. Wednesday comes along and steals the rest of my gas so again I go to the gas station and have a whole $20 to put in the tank. I pre-pay my $20 and it's taking a while to fill but I was just thinking it was being slow. I start the car that was just (again) on Red-Line-Empty and see the little needle move up to the This-Never-Happens-Full-Tank Line. Becca (my friend with me) and myself instantly think, "God just filled the tank!" There is no way my $20 just filled a big ol' truck that usually takes $80 to fill. No way. Two days goes by and the needle never moves so, I'm thinking that maybe it's broken and I just was over excited. I said to God, "Okay, I thought You filled my tank for me and I believe you can do that but, I don't want to be irresponsible and just not fill my tank and then breakdown on the side of the road. Can You just show me that it's not broken?" That evening the needle moves a tiny bit down, still on Full, but not Really-Full-Tank Full. That was almost 2 weeks ago and I am just now getting down to my Quarter-Tank Line.
Now most people reading this are like, "Oh my gosh. She is too bla bla bla... It wasn't God, it was just bla bla bla..." Okay? So you don't believe God miraculously placed gas into my tank but, you know what? I do believe He provided for me and that sure is miraculous because He does not have to care about my stupid little problem of not filling up my tank all the way! He cares and my tank is still not empty (and I've been driving more than I usually do.)
Thanks God. I know You're cool like that and like to give us good gifts.
Also I am totally reminded of the story of the vessels being filled with oil until they ran out of things to put the oil in... it just kept coming and coming and as long as the had something to put it in and fill up, the miraculous oil just kept coming. He is pouring... we just have to be open to receive the blessing and keep receiving and never stop.
Love. Lots of it.
